Tip toeing on thin ice........

I have found it difficult to keep going this week.  I feel like I am walking on thin ice, sometimes I can tip toe along and I am okay but when the ice breaks I am sent plummeting down into a dark, ice cold depth that is so so difficult to swim out of.

When I am swimming around in these dark waters I try and think of the times where I have been tip toeing along, I think that if I can just keep swimming then eventually I will reach the top and get my breath back.  I can then climb out and continue my tip toe, tip toe along.

We have had lovely family staying with us this weekend which was nice.  Normally when they stay with us, they have Hannah's room and Hannah stays with Ben in his room.  This time Hannah's room was out of bounds so we juggled it around a bit.  The difficulty with this was that Hannah loved giving her room up for the weekend, she was really proud of her room and loved sharing it, especially with our family.  She also loved sharing with Ben (sometimes) and I used to tell them off because they never stopped talking.

We went bowling (which Hannah loved) ten of us in total, which was good although at times I felt I was watching everybody else including myself from somewhere else.  I mentioned this to my husband and he agreed with me.  After bowling we had lunch in a pub that was local to us.  Big Mistake, we have not been there without Hannah but everybody had already sat down in the conservatory where we always used to sit.  I arrived after everybody else and had to go back out and compose myself in the car.

We all ordered our food, (Hannah would have had Brewers Chicken).  I picked at mine, got the bill and went home.  

Bowling partners minus Hannah Banana and Aunty Ang behind the camera!